Saturday, February 25, 2023

Cost of Conscience

Bogdan stood at the kitchen counter, flipping scrambled eggs with a practiced hand. He lived alone in a small apartment, surrounded by the remnants of a life well lived. The worn wooden floorboards creaked beneath his feet, and the shelves were cluttered with books, knick-knacks, and photographs of loved ones long gone. But despite the solitude, Bogdan was content. He had grown accustomed to his quiet existence, and relished the peace it brought him.

It was then that his phone rang, a sound that always managed to inject a spark of excitement into his otherwise routine days. He glanced at the caller ID and saw that it was Stefan, an old friend. Bogdan's face lit up with a broad smile as he answered the phone.

"Zdravo, Stefan," he said, his voice filled with warmth and joy. "It's been an age, my friend."

"Indeed it has," Stefan replied, sounding equally pleased to hear from Bogdan. "How have you been? It feels like a lifetime since we last spoke."

Bogdan chuckled, taking a moment to reflect on the years that had passed since they last saw each other. "Time flies, doesn't it? I've been well, just living life day by day."

Stefan asked about Bogdan's life and they chatted about old memories and recent developments. They talked of mutual friends, family, and reminisced about the carefree days of their youth. The conversation was light and easy, a balm for Bogdan's soul.

Finally, Stefan got to the point of his call. "Bogdan, I'm in town for a few days and I was hoping we could catch up in person. What do you say?"

Bogdan didn't hesitate. "I'd be delighted, my friend. When and where?"

Stefan suggested a quaint little café that he had heard of and they agreed to meet there in a few hours. Bogdan hung up the phone with a sense of anticipation, grateful for the unexpected visit from an old friend. He finished his breakfast and got dressed, eager to see Stefan and bask in the memories of the past.

As he stepped out into the street, Bogdan couldn't help but feel a sense of nostalgia. The old brick buildings, the smell of freshly baked bread, and the sound of distant accordion music all brought back fond memories.

**

Stefan, a few years younger than Bogdan, had arrived at the café and was meticulously setting up a chess board on the table, his eyes intermittently darting towards the door every time someone entered or exited. He was a renowned chess grandmaster and his distinguished appearance confirmed it. Placing the black pieces in front of him, he left the white pieces waiting for Bogdan. In stark contrast, Bogdan did not have the appearance of a chess grandmaster, and truth be told, he had not played the game in some time.

Upon his arrival, Bogdan took one look at the chess pieces and erupted in laughter. Despite his lack of practice, he was eager to sit down and make the first move. The two old friends made idle chitchat as they began to play, but as the game progressed and reached the middle game, Stefan broached a serious topic. "Do you regret sacrificing so much for the game?" he asked Bogdan.

Bogdan hesitated, his gaze fixated on the chessboard. "I would be lying if I said no," he finally replied. "I've spent so much time on chess that if I had spent half of it learning a trade, I would be in a much better financial position now." He sighed before continuing. "But then again, there's nothing I enjoy as much as chess. Who knows what my life would have been like if I had chosen differently?"

Stefan nodded in agreement. "Yes, being a grandmaster at chess is undoubtedly a remarkable feat, but it's not exactly a lucrative pursuit," he said. The difference in their levels of dedication to the game became increasingly apparent as the endgame approached, with Stefan still an active player.

After the game concluded, the two friends shook hands and put the board away. This gave Stefan the opportunity to lean in and whisper to Bogdan. "There's a GM norm tournament coming up, which I am helping to organize," he said. "A young chess content creator from the US, Vance Conway, will be playing. This tournament is the last step in his journey to achieve the title of grandmaster."

Stefan went on to explain that Vance was a famous YouTuber and streamer, but these words meant nothing to Bogdan, who was unfamiliar with the online world. "This kid is making a very good living from chess, and he's not shy about sharing his wealth with those who can help him reach the coveted title of grandmaster," Stefan said.

Bogdan, somewhat naive, misconstrued that Vance was seeking a new trainer, but Stefan quickly corrected him. "That's not what I meant," he said. "Vance is prepared to pay handsomely for a field of grandmasters if he emerges victorious in the tournament."

Bogdan was taken aback by Vance's willingness to pay for such an "empty" title. However, Stefan made a valid point that it would give Vance's chess channels increased credibility and, in turn, increase his income. Despite his initial reluctance, Bogdan eventually accepted Stefan's invitation to participate in the tournament. He couldn't help but think back to the years he used to play chess, and he was excited for the opportunity to reconnect with old friends and perhaps relive some of those memories.

**

Bogdan's thoughts consumed him as the tournament drew closer. He had always prided himself on his integrity, both on and off the chessboard. He had never once been tempted to cheat or throw a game, and he had always felt a deep sense of satisfaction in knowing that he had retired with a clean record. But now, he was faced with a difficult dilemma. He had agreed to participate in the tournament, and he was well aware that the purpose was not to play fair, but to throw the game in Vance Conway's favor. And this went against everything he had ever believed in.

However, the thought of cheating and potentially throwing a game was a notion that sat uneasily with Bogdan. He had always prided himself on his honesty, a value instilled in him by his parents, and had never once strayed from this path during his career. The thought of tarnishing this legacy was a heavy weight on his conscience.

But on the other hand, Bogdan was in dire financial straits. Despite his success as a chess player, he had never earned much money from the game, and as the years had passed, the debts had just kept piling up. He also felt that he had no obligation to maintain the integrity of the tournament or the organization. After all, they had done little to help players make a living from the game, and had profited greatly from it without giving much back. Players were always pretty much on their own in that regard.

Despite his reservations, Bogdan couldn't help but respect Vance Conway in a certain way. At least, Vance was making a good living from chess and did so on his own. But still, Bogdan couldn't shake the feeling that Vance was a cheat and he was not comfortable being associated with someone of that nature.

For weeks, Bogdan struggled with these conflicting thoughts and emotions. He didn't know what to do, and he felt as though he was stuck in a never-ending cycle of indecision and doubt.

**

On the big day, Bogdan found himself immersed in the tournament, he felt a rush of excitement and nostalgia. Each move of the chess pieces, every match he played, transported him back to his younger days when he was a rising star in the chess world. He was surrounded by familiar faces, other players who had dedicated much of their lives to the game and were now reaching the twilight of their careers. Despite their age, most were all still active and passionate about the game, much like Stefan.

Bogdan relished the opportunity to catch up with old acquaintances, swapping stories about their chess careers and reminiscing about past tournaments. He was pleasantly surprised to find that he wasn't the only one making a comeback after a prolonged absence from the game. A few of the players he faced were in the same boat, and he felt a sense of camaraderie with them.

Playing in the tournament was a breath of fresh air for Bogdan. It had been years since he last felt this invigorated, this fulfilled. He was grateful to Stefan for setting him up for this tournament and for giving him the chance to experience the joy of playing chess again.

Although some of the matches were destined to end in quick draws, Bogdan insisted on playing them out, relishing the challenge and the thrill of competition. He didn't mind that the matches eventually ended in draws, for him the journey was more important than the destination. Each move was a chance to test his skills, to push himself to be the best that he could be.

Bogdan was amazed at how easily he fell back into the rhythm of playing chess. Despite his years away from the game, his instincts and strategies were still as sharp as ever. Regardless of losing more games than he won, Bogdan still found immense joy in playing. He was overjoyed with a rare victory, feeling the same rush of excitement and accomplishment that he did when he won his first national title over twenty years ago.

As the tournament progressed, Bogdan found himself drawn deeper and deeper into the world of chess. He was reminded of why he fell in love with the game in the first place, and he was grateful for the chance to rediscover it. The tournament was a gift, and Bogdan was determined to make the most of it, relishing every moment, every match, every move.

He realized that his love for the game had never truly diminished, and he was now considering making a return to competitive chess. The tournament had reignited his passion, a flame that he thought had long been extinguished. Bogdan couldn't wait to delve back into the world of strategy and calculated moves, eager to once again feel the excitement of competition.

**

Finally, as Bogdan sat across from Vance Conway at the chessboard, he couldn't help but feel surprised by the demeanor of his opponent. He had expected Vance to be a brash, entitled young man, but instead he found himself facing a reserved and well-mannered individual. Despite the initial reservations he had felt towards Vance, Bogdan found himself softening, seeing the young man as simply a product of the competitive and cutthroat world he lived in.

As the game began, Bogdan felt a pang of uncertainty. He had never attempted to throw a game before, and he found himself at a loss as to how to proceed. Despite his misgivings, he decided to play the game out, hoping that the desired outcome would come about naturally.

As the game progressed, Bogdan's confidence began to dissipate. Vance's lack of understanding of the game became increasingly evident, and Bogdan soon realized that the young man was unable to win without his help. He watched as Vance made mistake after mistake, missing opportunities that Bogdan had deliberately left open for him. Bogdan's mood shifted from uneasy to frustrated, and eventually to anger, as he saw the magnitude of Vance's ignorance on display.

He reflected upon how his fiery temper had long hindered his ability to be an effective teacher, as he would often become irked by the mistakes of his pupils, particularly when they were still in the process of learning. This was not a hallmark of a competent instructor, as patience and understanding were vital qualities in imparting knowledge effectively. However, despite Bogdan's own self-awareness of his temperamental nature, he found himself unable to control his annoyance. Bogdan attempted to maintain composure, but he found himself becoming increasingly annoyed with each passing move. 

Bogdan, now consumed by frustration and anger, found himself acting in a manner that was uncharacteristic of his typically gracious and respectful approach to the game. He began baiting Vance into taking piece after piece, leaving himself open to an attack in a calculated effort to discredit his opponent. With each move, Vance became more and more entrenched in the intricately woven mating net that Bogdan had devised, blindly walking into the trap that was set for him. The endgame was swift and devastating, with Bogdan delivering a humiliating checkmate that left Vance reeling. The exhilaration of victory was tempered by the knowledge that he had acted in a manner that was far from respectful or honorable, and the guilt weighed heavily on him as he pondered the implications of his actions.

As soon as he had done so, he felt a deep sense of regret, not for not allowing Vance to win, but for letting his emotions get the better of him. He had always respected his opponents, so he could not shake the feeling of remorse for his behavior towards Vance, a young man who, despite his lack of skill, had shown nothing but respect.

Bogdan left the tournament that day, feeling a mix of emotions. Despite his love for the game, he couldn't help but question whether he was still cut out for the competitive world of chess. He felt as though his passion for the game was being tested, and he wasn't sure if he was ready to face the challenges that lay ahead.

**

As the tournament drew to a close, the outcome was clear - Vance Conway had emerged victorious, with only a single loss to his name. His victory earned him the prestigious Grand Master title and solidified his place among the elite of the chess world.

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